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G A R A H S T A H

hope you'll visit me there ...

and to all of you who stopped by 

and commented so generously on my interview with Cynthia of:

http://poemflesh2.blogspot.com/

thank you so much...

love bordering on graffiti...

love bordering on graffiti
16 x 20 mixed media on canvas

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You may be asking asking why? why does she title a painting

love bordering on graffiti? well, good question. I ask myself the same ;)

Often times, the title just pops in and other times, I give it deeper thought.

This is one of those times when the title just popped!

Does it make sense? probably only to me, but I'll attempt explanation.

love bordering on graffiti, to me, is the after-affect of loving someone

who was very wrong, hence the markings on her face and imagine the markings from the damage and the hurt within.....collateral damage for giving

her heart to someone who clearly did not deserve her devotion.

Sad but true and so love can get ugly at times. Ugly in the sense that some people speak of love, write of love, dream of love but they know nothing about l o v e...BUT they are really good at making us think they do.

I love with my whole heart and I

don't regret ever doing so, I only regret how blindly and for how long.

I loved someone who was wrong for me, but he was also right in far too many ways, which should have been my first clue.

Lesson learned:  Do not give your whole heart and trust; without it being fully earned. 

Simple huh? well, it is for those who are capable of turning off those feelings ar at least slowing them down to the point of saying okay, "I must take my time here."  However, admittedly, this has never been my strong suit, BUT IT IS NOW! :)

 love is human

love is flawed

but to love is to breathe

and i want to keep breathing

voice interrupted...abstraction in love - 2 new paintings...

voice interrupted

12 x 24 mixed media on canvas

 

abstraction in love

12 x 24 acrylic on canvas

I usually approach an abstract painting 'intuitively,'  meaning I have no preconceived ideas. 

Though with 'voice interrupted'  I did begin with a rough sketch of a child and a woman.  When I started to paint the woman and child I was thinking about vulnerability. I was thinking about a woman's voice; her symbolic voice.  Her uniqueness. I was thinking about her inner child and how in her adulthood, it is her inner child

that is in despair when her heart is broken. I was thinking about those grey areas. 

Vulnerability is a tricky thing. Acutely apparent no matter the circumstances. If we are open, we are open to vulnerability.  Many times we chance our vulnerabilities and can be exposed to psychological manipulators. There are those in life who will take advantage  and prey upon the most vulnerable. That is something I only touch upon here but I know the 'Universe' will have its say in those matters.

And at the same time we cannot truly love unless we allow ourselves that vulnerability. 

It is a catch 22 to be sure. 

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 abstraction in love was purely driven by intuition. With only  'abstraction' and perhaps 'symmetry' in mind. I allow my feelings and emotions to flow and whatever comes ~ comes. Obviously, the Japanese Kanji script symbol for love was deliberately painted in. You will find this symbol in many of my paintings. I should get a tattoo of this very symbol and place it near my heart, for I wear my love on  my heart like a tattoo or badge. That is why in my recently published self-portrait you may recall I painted the same symbol over my heart.  The other elements in this painting are the sky , earth and wings of love and also those wings took on the symbol of a Phoenix bird in flight. This I noticed after finishing the painting. The Phoenix symbolizes re-birth and this is a prevalent time, personally for me, and I am sure this is true for many of you. A re-birth of intentions, of love and of creating anew.  There is a re-birth after each natural disaster such as the one that will eventually take place in Haiti. 

And after all, it is a new year and the possibilities are endless...

...So, here we have two very definitive meanings behind these paintings, at least for me and though I have purposefully left some of the symbolism out of my descriptions, I am fully open to your interpretations. 

I love knowing what you see and feel. 

AND most importantly...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my son, LOGAN! 

Who is 8 years old today...:)

Momma loves you little man!

POEMFLESH2: DIALOGUE an interview...

Hi Everyone! …I would love for

you to visit my dear friend and fellow blogger Cynthia of POEMFLESH2: DIALOGUE.  Cynthia asked if I would like to be a part of her new blog format and partake in an interview about my art and poetry. Obviously, I was thrilled to do so and it was so enjoyable.  Plus it gives me the opportunity to lighten things up a bit around here and engage in some shameless and tawdry self-promotion ;) ...LOL

And, it goes without saying, I really love her poetry …Please visit her, check out our dialogue and move slowly back through her pages for her intelligent, intriguing, sensual and captivating work. 

Many of you already know her but for those who do not, just know you will be delighted.

Thank you all...
And Thank you so much, Cynthia! See you there... 
http://poemflesh2.blogspot.com/

POEMFLESH2: DIALOGUE - an interview...

Hi Everyone! …I would love for

you to visit my dear friend and fellow blogger Cynthia of POEMFLESH2: DIALOGUE.  Cynthia asked if I would like to be a part of her new blog format and partake in an interview about my art and poetry. Obviously, I was thrilled to do so and it was so enjoyable.  Plus it gives me the opportunity to lighten things up a bit around here and engage in some shameless and tawdry self-promotion ;) ...LOL

And, it goes without saying, I really love her poetry …Please visit her, check out our dialogue and move slowly back through her pages for her intelligent, intriguing, sensual and captivating work. 

Many of you already know her but for those who do not, just know you will be delighted.

Thank you all...
And Thank you so much, Cynthia! See you there...
http://poemflesh2.blogspot.com/

She is on one side of Truth, He on the other...

discontent swallows whole

ALL those things once held dear

discontent

and a heavy heart

wavering…

a tug of war

between empowering thoughts

and the fall of tears

discontent

makes time stand still

as restless longing

turns to need

for sleep

for a rainy day

for the trail of tears

to be kissed away and made right

by the one who inflicted the wrongs

but what she really needs

is to find peace

in the knowing

that the only thing REAL are her tears

and those things she held dear

sadly ~ were not

She is on one side of Truth and He on the other…

 ©

2010

 image source: woman_crying_1jpg

in the midst of...

dark introspection
leading to the ultimate

~ of joyous release




©
2010

image source: 842739767_f5b780519c
* thank you all for your sweet wishes during the holidays and since. I hope you all experienced the best of holiday seasons! I am still on somewhat of a break and apologize for not having visited... I hadn't realized that
this break was so needed until I was in the midst of it.

but I will be back soon and miss all of you, and your posts.
thank you!