awakening the Muse ...a 5 for 1

she wanted

so she waited
she never quite knew which way the
wind would fashion itself next...but she held on.

was she misguided to believe? 
through trial and error
she sequestered her thoughts...no one would ever know the depth
of her knowledge
she's had no choice but to remain silent
she is aware of unspoken motives
she is aware of the said and the unsaid

 her gift? or more accurately ~
her burden
her silenceher silence

 she hides behind this knowledge
she cannot open the wound until she knows she can have  the purity and honesty
that she lives for

death of faith
death of faith

let downdisenchanted is she, from the story she lived, loved, told herself.

how can ones  faith  function and remain intact
in this pool of obscurity?
her heart downtrodden she moves on from the maize that her love has become.
a lover's choice
freedom  her only choice
freedom to loveto be loved in return...as fortune, will be hersshe will know a love like no othershe will not live behind rules, religion, or the creedof others' only those of her own making
true love...that is her creed
her religion

your kiss was not a kiss goodbye
yet your kiss remains the reason why

a song of love...a ballad...
lost... found...lost again

your kiss whispered many a tale

a collaborationof feelings
shared...

conceived in the mind,
felt in the heart
leaving an imprint upon the soul

companions in living
 in dying
though never near

imagined then realized by a
fleeting impulse as evidence was made
 touched createdand nothing will ever be the same

thwarted by imposing obligationsa life already lived

 distorted
elusive wants mixed with
inflated dreams
inflated by your kisses
the ones that

diffused light in darker days...

facets of youthat glisten in the setting Sun
dancing on raindrops as rainbows form across the skies
from one end to the other i love you!
i found you on one sideand i on the otheras we met in the middle
where forever rainbows reside...

fears have fed hurt to my loverfeeding more hurt to my fearsas uncertainties lay openbefore US like a wall made of stonethat lays before the garden planted with what if's and i told you so's
reverting to a darkened corner that is all that can be done

a pregnant pause

as my love for you

streams back & forth

between levels of consciousness

finding myself

letting go

lingering midway

between this heaven and hell

this limbo

yet whatever the Gods deem

will be so...

©
2009
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